Beaming with a smile and tears in her eyes, she quietly whispered to me,
“I found myself again.”
I could see in her eyes that something inside of her soul changed. I gave her my full attention as she told me her story.
When she was a younger lady she had a fire in her bones to pray for others and visit the poor. She loved prayer meetings and going into her quiet space to intercede. She enjoyed serving in the food lines downtown. But she lived a double life. She allowed sin in her soul.
Her life style caused her great pain. Broken and abused she felt unworthy to serve the Lord as she had been doing. Opportunities would come up for her to pray or feed the poor but she felt too much shame.
She felt that her mess ups disqualified her.
She became depressed and felt angry almost all the time. She would blow up over little things.
It wasn’t until she went to a counselor that her life started to change. It was in counseling that she accepted Christ’s forgiveness and she forgave herself. After years of rejecting herself she found herself again. She rediscovered the lady within. The lady who prayed for others and served God wholeheartedly.
Shame no longer had control over her.
I have felt this way before. How about you? Maybe you are there now
Her story reminds me that we are God’s workmanship created in Christ Jesus to do good works which He has prepared in advance for us to do through Him.
Let’s embrace our salvation through Christ and stop condemning ourselves
4 just as [in His love] He chose us in Christ [actually selected us for Himself as His own] before the foundation of the world, so that we would be holy [that is, consecrated, set apart for Him, purpose-driven] and blameless in His sight. In love 5 He predestined and lovingly planned for us to be adopted to Himself as [His own] children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the kind intention and good pleasure of His will— 6 to the praise of His glorious grace and favor, which He so freely bestowed on us in the Beloved [His Son, Jesus Christ]. Ephesians 1:4-6 (AMP)
NO MORE SHAME.