When I was single I was determined to have life happen my way. I dreamed of being a wife and having children ever since I was a child. When all my friends were married and having babies, I felt left out. What about me God?
Waiting for God to give me the desires of my heart was painful. It was taking Him too long. I ached and worried. I thought I knew what was best for me. I convinced myself that marriage would make me a happier person and having kids would complete me.
One day I decided that I was not going to wait for God to bring me my husband. God was not living up to my expectations. I decided to live my own life and I ignored Him.
I spent years in want and I slept in darkness. I did things my way and still God stood beside me waiting for me to be still, but I didn’t pay attention until I was broken.
My way wasn’t working. A matter of fact my way didn’t get me what I wanted.
I hungered to belong to something bigger than myself. I wanted to matter and have value. Instead that someone and something I thought was so great almost destroyed me. I became a slave to sin.
No matter where we are in life we have wants and we want things done in our time. Maybe you want a child, but your body won’t cooperate. You might be upset because you have not heard about the job you just interviewed for. You might doubt that you heard from God because the adoption papers have not been approved yet.
Waiting is hard, but I’m here to tell you that God does come through. I’m married with two beautiful children. I didn’t get married until I was forty. It has been a long wait and I didn’t handle waiting very well. But I want to encourage you to seek God and believe in Him while you are waiting.
God has His reasons for the way He does things. Be still and know that He is God. Don’t try to get ahead of Him. Listen for His voice to guide you. He wants you to be obedient and to trust Him. Don’t give up hope when you see others receiving what you been asking for, because He has a plan for you too.
I felt joy in my life when I stopped searching for my significance in others and happiness in my accomplishments. Peace filled my life when I rested in the knowledge that I belong to God and He created me to be in fellowship with Him. When I realized that I was no longer alone, God brought me my husband.
God waited for me to seek Him first in all things before He gave me children.
Be Still And Know that I am God. Psalms 46:10
Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matthew 6:33